these day, i had a time to think how lucky i am to be around the people who choose to be around me in every single way.and wanted to thank everyone here.
i have re_recognized that so many people love me, and it is really apliciate that fact that my personality and talent has been love, and thought i have to learn more what i need to learn from experience in life to make what's been loved even better! so you can like me more more more! woo!
I was sooo home sick for like 2 weeks, the biggest reason i can think of is that my grand mom has die January 5th in japan, (the day after she receaved the NY LookBook that i was in.)
I have talked about my grand mom story before here (or on myspace blog), cause i felt soooo much power from her. Although she was in coma (for half a year) she had power to bring me back to japan with me chancelling the big fashion show (july), but still it was and is hard to accept the person's death. I knew that i don want to accept it, so i didn wanted to talk about it here, but it is also important to let you all know that she left to another world. i feel like she brought a lot of people i feel like... with her, i mean..it was many people dieing the half year specifically at the place that she wanted to go, NY, Brazil, etc.
its creazy to believe some of the thing happen that makes me think that these things happen in a reason, but who knows these thing, u know? what the hell. However, i believe in a power in each people, and that make something possible to happen or you bring ur "life road" to where you want (im just trying to say her power didn kill anyone but she is around some crazy shit u know? what the hell. and aslo it was very sorry to know people die any where always but you will die some times in your life right? so enjoy till it last! woo!)
when i feel power of people, thats when people feel my exsistance, and it could be any way, when you like what i do, that is big apliciation, when you see me on the street and wanna hit me, that is still apliciated because they recognizing my exsistance. and when especially positive power comes to me, that brings me to next level. I live for that.
do u think u can live in Mars by ur self? no. but i can live there with my friend. i love ppl! but im not good at composing sentence, so i came to the point i don know how to finish what im talking about, but all im saying is that thank you so much everyone who knows and will know me at this point and in the future. some like that right? hehehe.
and please try to pronounce my name right. (oh well, its too bad that i miss spell it but i love it! so im keep in it, so you pronounce like KO O a n (KOOan), well this douesn explain well, isn it? what the hell? im gonna tape my voice soon and link the pronouceation or something.... maybe if u use it as ring tone, i will annoy ur life.. hahah, so KO O a n!
However, at the same time, i love the fact many people pronounce KOOan in their own way. its like " thank you for new version!"myoooo
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